Bodie remembers something his mother told him.
An established relationship story.
Written: August 2007. Word count: 200.
You never know, do you? How much you've got, I mean. Not ‘til it's gone. Then it's too late.
Me mam always told me ‘never look a gift horse in the mouth'. Never really understood that, until now.
Now I do.
Because now I've lost Ray.
Said he'd had enough.
One day he was there. The next he'd packed his bags and gone.
Left the mob.
Left the Old Man.
And I let him.
Didn't try to get him to stay.
Didn't know how.
Didn't know what to do.
Didn't know what to say.
Never really told him how I felt.
Not sure I knew.
Not sure I wanted to admit it.
Not to him. Not to myself.
Now it's too late.
I lost what I had and didn't even know I had it.
Me mam was right. I did look the ‘gift horse in the mouth'.
Wish I could tell her that I finally understand.
But I can't.
Because like Ray, she's gone.
Just in a different way. She's dead.
Still miss her. Never told anyone that.
Not even Ray.
Never told Ray a lot of things.
Should have done.
No Favourites is a companion piece to this story.
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