ONE HUNDRED THINGS

By

Ashleigh Anpilova

Set at the beginning of Judgment Day.
Jenny is about to leave DC.
A Jenny-centric gen story.
Written: August 2008. Word count: 300.

When Ducky confirmed that I was dying, I decided to make a list of all the things I hadn't done.

I decided I would write out one hundred things and then try to do them before the day came when I would be too ill, in too much pain, suffering too much, to do anything, except pray for death.

I told myself I would say all the things I'd left unsaid.

I told myself I would put right all the things I had made go wrong.

I told myself I would let people get near to me.

I told myself I would stop obsessing about my father's death and the man whom I believed caused it.

I told myself I would not leave undone things I should have done.

I told myself I would live for whatever time I had left.

I told myself one hundred things was a good number; an achievable one.

I told myself I would do them.

I told myself so many things.

But in the end I never did write the list.

I never did say the things I should have said.

I never did attempt to put right the things I had made go wrong.

I never did let people get near to me.

I never did stop obsessing about my father's death or the man who had killed him.

I left undone things I should have done.

I didn't live in the time I had left.

One hundred things might have been a good number; an achievable one.

But I didn't do them.

I have never believed in karma or knowing when you're going to die, or a time for everyone to go. But I won't be returning to DC; at least I won't be returning alive.

Of that I am quite certain.

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